I was having ‘one of those days’ a few weeks ago.
Baby girl was up really early and not in the best mood. Sometimes she does not want to go potty after waking up and she was pitching a fit.
“I can’t deal with this crying right now”.
I put her in my bed with her thumb and blankie.
I had woken up groggy and the boys were now raring to go full force. There’s only so much quiet they can do in the mornings.
“I can’t deal with your noise right now, y’all go down to the playroom and play before I get breakfast ready.”
And then I checked my email to find a shipment that I forgot to delay was coming my way. I quickly called their customer service and got the delivery canceled. And then in a state of overwhelm, I cancelled the subscription.
“I just can’t manage this anymore.”
In a time frame of 30 minutes I had said “I can’t” three times. It was then I caught myself. It is very unlike me to talk this way. So I called the kids to the table. “Coloring time!” and set them to an activity that would be little mess or danger.
I took a breather on my chair in my room and had a meeting with myself. I had started of my day in a state of defeat. This was uncomfortable and I was not going to let all my day be this way. So I decided that I would not say “I can’t” again.
“Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.” Proverbs 18:21 NASB
I’ve lived long enough now that I know that the above verse is true. I’ve spent days saying every overwhelmed thing that pops into my head; taking self defeating thoughts and bringing them to life with my words. I am done with making a habit of it. That’s not to say that it is no longer a struggle to watch what lies I’m believing and the words I am saying. But I wholeheartedly believe that the words I say and the thoughts I think become who I am.
“Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. Put away from you a deceitful mouth. And put devious speech far from you.” Proverbs 4:23-24 NASB
Jesus even warns us to not be defiled by our words.
“For the mouth speaks out of that which fills the heart. The good man brings out of his good treasure what is good; and the evil man brings out of his evil treasure what is evil.” Matthew 12:34-35 NASB
I can choose to take those thoughts of overwhelm and defeat and give life to them with my words. I’ll be ensured a bad day. Or I can get a change of heart. I can replace the bad thoughts and words with God’s word. He can make my heart flow with life; I have his forgiveness when I am wrong and I have his love unconditionally.
And my just about second to Jesus grandmother has been offering this advice for some time; “Can’t never could”, and I believe that she is right.
How do you restart when you have a day that is on the downward trend??